Theres an important thing that i havent gotten to sit down and do because ive just been so lazy and i havent taken my medications in days and i have therapy tomotrow djdjhdhdhdhdjdjiwuehdn

I need to get this done because the longer i put it off the worse things get and i dont want to make things worse. I seriously need to take my medication and sit down and get important things done because ive been lazy all week and its not fair to others and i feel like a leech honestly ive been doing barely anything at all. I hope ill have the energy to do it tomotrow after therapy

I need to get better at shutting off my emotions for when things get bad because theres that stupid part of me that wants to be immature and lash out but the other part of me just tries my hardest to stay in line and i wish i could be that part of myself everytime

Something eerily unpleasant about being able to shut off all my feelings like that on command but its also quite helpful for when i need to shut up

This is going to suck so bad ik ive been putting off and forgetting to keep myself in this state of contentment but i seriouslu need to stop

I really wish people could understand whats going on inside my brain because i just sound and look like a total asshole who doesnt care about people and my relationships with others

I need to stop sulking and make a change myself okay no pity no more being pathetic if i want a change then i have to try harder not whine about how nobody understands me thats not fixing anything i need to try harder i need to try again and if it doesnt work at least i can say i tried maybe idk how sad ill be by the end of this last time i cried a little but i need to do better and make the effort

Tomorrow I'll get it done i need to rest for now

Ive been a bad friend but im going to try and do better and fix it