She’s told lies about me and tried to turn people against me…. If she wants me gone she could just say so…. If she wants me to die she could just say so…. I need sleep but I can’t stop thinking about how she does this to me…. It’s probably to make me feel guilty about myself but…. I always have…. She just wants me to be gone…. At this point I’m about to leave her life…. Leave THIS life…. But I won’t…. It’s just me being sleepy but …. She wants me gone so…. I probably won’t talk to her so much like I did….