like how can u admit to missing me when u were the one that was acting like i was an evil mastermind and also when u broke it off u acted like i had to stop talking/thinking about you 5ever and never reminisce and never do anything that implied we ever even knew each other otherwise im OBSESSED and LIVING RENT FREE IN UR HEAD like yeah sometimes i reminisce on the stupid shit that happened on this website. publicly on this website. as if anyone even checks this site anymore to see me doing it

and now YOURE doing it so what are you obsessed now? do i live rent free in your head? not an actual accusation bc i think everyone involved is at a point in their lives where they SHOULD be able to put dumb drama aside and just go haha that was dumb. like. it was categorically stupid. all of this is stupid

but idk yeah i did put a lot of myself into drama then and i still think about it not infrequently bc as pathetic as it sounds that was pretty much my entire life. no drivers license nowhere else i wanted to post no job in a new state yeah. i was pretty terminally online for a while. and im SURE i was an asshole in whatever drama blah blah acting like i was the bad one and realistically i should have been mature but i am never above playing in the mud for drama and this is why i just go on kiwifarms now because i am just like this lol i just like drama. however i didnt try to create drama with my friends and when someone ended something/i ended something i didnt go around shitting on them until THEY went out and shit on ME im looking at you ms "my doctor alter says youre a narcissist" or at least i tried to. idk i dont remember everything i said and maybe someone else remembers better its just kind of funny. me n crystal smorking a carmel at derring precipitated by neopronoun discourse

but idk. i like to think everyone involved in that discourse at the time has grown up* and moved on bc its been YEARS and tbh i am not still dwelling on it unless someone brings it up first. i got a job and went to college and like. grew up. i have other friends now i have a life and i really hope everyone else involved has also gotten a life. not a dig but like. holy SHIT i did not realize how shitty it was to be no license no job living with your parents until i wasnt doing it anymore. obviously nothing is ever perfect but people who whine about ughhh adulting is so harrrrrd i just want to be a kid again must have had perfect childhoods or something bc when i was a child i was not capable of driving 2 hours to touch grass or trespass in swamps

you will never be one degree of separation from all the most respected botanists on the east coast

look i never gave you a work beer or supplied you with random shooters so i think im doing pretty good all things considered