i feel paranoid and irritable, but at the same time i cant get angry the maximum i can do is being annoyed

my lack of sleep for more than a month now wearing me down, and so much shit happens to me everyday like littles things mixed with MASSIVE ****ING PROBLEMS

ill just list somethings, i dont remember everything 1. someone stole my IEMs and cash from me just because someone wasn't even bothered to get out of bed to check what they were supposed to 2. someone else stole 40 buck from me this was partially my fault since i was still affected by problem #1 and forgot i left my wallet in the wrong bag 3 my phones screen broke 4.my laptop broke and it will cost more than half its value to repair it, i had that laptop for less than 10 months 5. im basically one three or four ppl in mi class that actually do something and not just tell ppl what to do or just straight up not do anything 6.(this injury happened right at the end of 2024) i think my knee injury has gotten worse its starting to hurt more and more bit by bit, ill never be able to run or jump without risk of dislocating or tearing something. ill also probable be using a cane in my twenties

i think my physique is dealing with everything that happened is to just act like any negative emotions don't happen, so im stuck on some sort of emotional limbo of getting annoyed and instantly not being annoyed, it doesn't feel good, theres no good time for feeling bad and probably the other month to

i forgot to mention that for like week i couldn't eat properly because the left joint of my jaw felt my like it fractured it was painful