Just something--
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Grapefruit-S0DA 
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29.02.2020
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Grapefruit-S0DA[OP]
29.02.2020 00:59
LinkHonestly I was going to kill my self. Then my sister started crying and freaking out about her friend who was going to kill herself. Once everyone leaves I'll talk to my mom about a tharapist. Maybe then I could calm down and be less of an asshole.
Yeah.
Tbh my mom offered for me to get a thatapist I told her no cause I guess I wanted to do it on my own. I thought I was strong enough for that but life just continued to pile shit on me so I just got emotional quickly.
Yeah. Honestly I'm getting more in to the mood. A friend I have ignored me when I asked them if they would care if I was gone. And this one other person clearly doesn't care. So I just got out of the cheer full redemption mood. 😧👌
Ehh ;w;
How does one even ask for a thatapist from there mother though..
I know, asking for a therapist is awkward and maybe something you don’t want to do, but trust me from my case, I begged my mom for one, and now and then I’ll talk to the councillor at my school. It feels good to let everything out instead of bottling it up over and over again, and if you’re having depressive episodes and thoughts of suicide then you should reach out to someone. I know being an over-achiever and setting high goals for yourself, and thinking you’re strong enough catches up to your emotions with stress and carrying deadweights, I still feel it. But if you believe you’re strong enough to do it, then find a time or talk to a councillor. Emotions are complex and I was there too, but if you need to vent, I’m open to it, I know your situation is different and I can’t help make your decisions, but I hope you can find an approach to this.
Yeah honestly I probably held out for the longest time because I thought I had someone to vent to. She would naturally vent. May not be to me but I was Still thare. And she wouldn't do anything back. Probably why Its worst because I went back and thought of how we use to be. She was really nice and asked how I was and if I was doing ok.
I take into assumption you guys were really close together, I’m sorry to hear that. Did you vent to her a lot or most of the time when you had something going on? But she sounded sweet enough to check up on you now and then, did something happen between you? I’m sorry to ask, if you don’t want to say you don’t gotta.
We were close. We'd help each other most of the time. And I guess the time's just changed. I keep on thinking we are close and talking to her as if, but clearly she doesn't want me anymore. I did blow of someone else as well cause I always over think. And I think a tharpist would help..
You sounded like you two drifted then, I'm sorry to hear that, it happened to me a couple times before. But over-thinking everything is a really stressful thing, yes, a therapist would be really good for you, it takes awhile to open up to others but it can get all your over-thinking, stress, problems and whatever is weighing you down. Talking to someone really makes you feel better, trust me for me, coming out a session made me feel like I was on clouds lol
But the thing with therapy if you have things you don’t want to tell parents or family, you don’t and it’s all private. Everything stays in that room.
Yeah. I guess we did..
Honestly it's really hard for me to meet new people or even consider them friends. So when I do I hold them close. I guess I just felt lonely resent because of it. Damn it I'm crying now. :')
Awe! Sorry to hear your crying, maybe it’s cause you’re getting a chance to talk about it. But introduce new steps to yourself slowly with talking to new people, so maybe you have a hard time trusting others. But it’s good to open up, try not to overthink the bad or get too paranoid about it. You’re friends enjoy having you around and we’ve never really talked, but you seem to trust me enough to vent which is a big step. Need a hug? lol
Dude, your actually really nice iui
Sorry I was goNE for a bit. My mom came in complaining about something.
And yes please big hug iui
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Ofcs and if you need any help or anything though my helping skills got way worst I'm here xD iui