Maybe I have just lost creativity or maybe I dont want people to worry about me. Maybe I see to many people already venting and dont want to join the club. Maybe I have seen to many of my old friends leave FA. What ever the reason is. I cant do it anymore. I cant speak my feeling and I cant commit to things. It might just be something in my brain

I wish I could just function like a normal person. They all say things like " How could you forget that many times!" or " Just make a list" but thats not how it works, I wish it was.

I used to do great in school. I used to gain followers at a steady pase. I used to feel happy.

Now I work hard at things and fail. and if I dont fail its at something simple so nobody notices.

I wish I could delete this post and all the feelings that come with it. That they would all just be gone at the press of a button.

But it just doesn't work that way. People vent because they want others to know. I don't know if I want them to know because they might treat me differently or I might say something stupid that ruins everything

They tell me to " Stop crying! You're almost in highschool so act like it!" I think they need to take their own advice, and adult should be able to tell that they are just making me cry more.

I hope my few IRL friends don't see me crying. Tho as I am typing this, I am crying more and she's right next to me.

I hope Smol doesn't see this, I don't want her to worry about me. I hope none of them worry about me.

I wish my technology teacher would stop pretending that you can't be friends with people purely on the internet. It makes me feel like it's all not real.

I wish I would stop crying

I wish people would stop being so ****ing loud

I hope my classmate's aren't gonna be little *****'s today

I hope that Ruby isn't to damanding today

I sound like a broken record. I just keep repeating myself.

My classmates are already doing what they normally do

I have to go to my therapist so that will be justttt great.

Ruby has decided to pull the " now you know how I feel" card so I guess I am crying again. WOOOO