Btw Swear warning for those who don’t like swearing :^

I’m so f^cking done with this f^cking school, Band is emotionally draining, I’ve cried from it and cried in front of the f^cking teacher twice. I have a f^cking solo in a week and I can’t even remember more than 10 measures, I’m so stressed out with keeping my grades before report cards come out so I don’t repeat the grade, I haven’t slept properly in 2 weeks. I sleep all day over the weekends, I watch sh*t that is considered ‘weird’ or ‘inappropriate’ for me. I don’t even know if I can keep myself alive anymore, I don’t want to keep doing this, my mom yells at me, I’m terrified of my dad now. Then my dad’s f*cling messed up uncle comes into town, I know he’s better now but he’s not okay in my eyes

There’s been more kids getting COVID, I can’t even keep myself calm without lashing out about something, I’m starting to actually h8 myself because of the dumb sh*t I do now, i keep getting in trouble, I don’t give a f*ck about school work now, it’s always ‘ this is due!’ ‘Pay attention’ ‘keep your grades up!’ I’m sorry I didn’t know that teachers want their students to have f*cking health issues, I get offered help but I don’t f*king take it. Why would I? It’s basically my way of saying ‘I’m a f*cking idiot and I accept it’ that’s how I feel when people help me, I feel like a burden to my friends

I’m literally so tired of this sh*t I just want to fall asleep and stay asleep until this f*cling nightmare ends. I’m done with this rant but there’s probably gonna be a whole lot more and a bunch of vents because I’m f*cking stressed out my mind rn

Thanks, sorry I had to say all of that I’m just really mad and stressed rn

<3 thx fury