And the most horrible thing about this is that people took it as a joke... what a funny joke wasn’t it. The girl was depressed and she was laughing with everyone else. This girl could become an actor she had already pretended everything was fine she was faking her smile. And then we switched schools And I started to starve myself. Because that was the reason I was replaced because of my looks wasn’t it??

I’ve been hurting inside for more than a year, the awesome feeling of crying at 11 pm the Thursday of March 25. Crying alone What a beautiful feeling But the things is I had the feeling of just ending it. Like 6 months before. That day... thinking if it was easier to shoot myself or just jump. Ever heard the saying? If your friends jumped of a cliff, would you jump?? I later realised.. I was the friend who would jump first