Don’t ask me if I want to talk to you because I don’t right now. The only person I want is Aaron because he’s probably the only one that can make me happy at this point. Your probably wondering why I’m so upset and ****ing stupid, well I’ll tell you. Last night, I was watching Beat Bobbly Flay (Its a good show-) and as everyone knows, I own cats. What I haven’t told you is that I have 6, 4 kids and 2 adults. Well, all of a I hear a chair bang to the floor and I don’t think nothing of it until I hear the screams of one of the cats. I turn my head and I see him pooping blood from his nose and mouth whole barley breathing. My anxiety kicked in and I started to panic and I was hyperventilating and I called my dad and he came over and I kept saying that it was my fault and it is. They think he might die and I just...I can’t deal with a death on my conscience. My mental state is already bullshit but for this to happen because of my carelessness is beyond more than I can handle. I just wouldnt forgive myself if I-

had killed the one thing that matters to me, besides my brother. I just feel responsible for his death and I feel guilty. (I’m done typing now.)

...That’s a lie. You wanna know how it’s my fault?? Fine. It’s my fault because I have this cage that I have to put the kittens in and I let them out for eating and I was supposed to put them back up but I was too ****ing lazy and I didn’t and know it costs me a life.....Do you even know what that feels like? To have a death of a living creature that was caused by you because of your actions?....I’m sorry, I’m just still upset about it...

...I just....i can’t even look at him without feeling guilty...they say he’s going to be blind or they think and I just can’t-....he looks so miserable...