for 2 days which was shit

but now i think about it

next time i'll go to england- will be in a year

so what my wanker ass is on about rn is

2 years ago around may 5th- would i realize how shit my life would be 2 years in the future

i ****ing miss waking up and feeling like im gonna ****ing have so much ****ing fun with my friends after school

another thing about it is

what if my past self from 2019 was prepared for it because she actually ****ing wasnt

back then i didnt ****ing know on that exact day i'd be locked inside my ****ing house and losing my shit over a ****ing 12 year old trans boy

shit is weird