It feels as if with every passing Minute a dark hole grows biigger and bigger inside of me until there is Nothing left other than a shell of a person. The thought that I will never be where I want to be. The thought that I will never be where I belong. The thought that I will never see anybody that I belong with. All of it is eating me up. I've lost my appetite entirely. I can only eat like. Oatmeal and Flavorless frozen meals anymore. I haven't been able to concentrate. I can't think about anything other than the certain doom looming over me. I want to die. I am bound to die. I don't want to see myself reach adulthood. I don't want to see myself get anywhere close. Every night I hope that I die in my sleep. If I die then I will be let loose from this suffering! I will be free. There will be no limits upon me. I won't even be real anymore.