stress
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SmugKitten 
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15.03.2021
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Sashaythedemon
15.03.2021 03:22
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these stupid classes im taking are stressing me out so much. my brain cant even handle it. i have to remember so much and i just want to die. to escape it all. but thats the only reason i want to go, besides overwhelming dysphoria. i rant about dance a lot, but its seriously effecting my mental health now. i hate all this pressure. i hate having to rememebr. i can only do so much at once. just make it stop. the costumes have short sleeves. everyone will see.
i think i had a dream one night where i was doing the ballet recital (like real big thing (ballet is the most torturous)) and there this one part that i kinda struggle with, and when we got to that part during the recital, i just... collapsed and started sobbing. it was really scary or something.
i should stop trying to cut. i should stop. its really dangerous. i need to stop.
im removing the scissors from my room. im using a red pen where i usually cut instead of the scissors. i hope it works. i hope i can stop myself before anything really bad happens.