I'm legitimately am supposed to be doing my work but my mental state is at its crisis. I do not have a mental illness, I was never professionally diagnosed for a mood disorder or anything having to do with depression. I am perfectly happy at most, but life does crumble harshly. As in not doing my assignments,. The human mind has some sort of motivation to do an action. I choose to do something my way. A huge problem, you can see my scores and they'd be terrible. I'd come home to my mother screaming at me on how I am a disappointment. Note that a shit ton of this comes from a relationship I had last year. I had used people as a manipulator. I take credit for that, I have done stuff that has been messed up. That relationship was my first close one ever. And I then went on relationship and relationship to get over the previous. And it doesnt get better, though I have recently had a partner now that is long term. Correct, I finally found someone compatible. Now thats out of the way this vent is mainly about p1