I feel as if im alone when i watch ppl i had crush's on date friends. i just felt like venting about it,idk why but i feel this feeling every single second everywhere and hate just consumes me and idk how to deal with it. i dont like most ppl and i dont like the world, i try to be nice just to have some companions in life but some friends leave me like i did something wrong and those that dont i fear i might mess up the relationship, so i have the thoughts of killing myself even though its not good for me so please try to understand taking breaks off of everything doesn't really work, crying doesn't work :')