I'm bored so imma vent here
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Reserve-Komaeda[OP]
24.08.2020 04:09
LinkSo hi
Yes
I have been sad
Uh
The main reason is that my closest friends onlines are distant. They keep ghosting me and such
So that's why I get so uh...Weird and obsessive when someone on here dissappears for like an hour
If you (the person who should be ignoring this) have ever like
Seen like ten shitposts by me within like half an hour
That usually is me trying to distract myself from the fact people aren't talking to me
And
I just
On here? I've lost,,, So many people
My first friend group forgot about me, my second group kinda split up and we hardly know each other now, my third group stuck for a long while, and that was on and off, adding friends and losing them
And then I just had Pinkie
And then...She was gone
So I had to make this account since the others were dead
And uhm..
I suppose I kind of had a friend group for a bit, with Pudding, Shoe, and Bllue, sorta? Since we all chatted together a lot
But then Shoe left
And now she's back but
We a
Reserve-Komaeda[OP]
24.08.2020 04:15
LinkRent exactly a friend group anymore??? Idk, maybe I just..Have too high standards
Well, anyway
With all that past and still just being here, getting ghosted...Scares me
And lately people I really care about have been doing it a lot
One friend has been ghosting me for five weeks
Another friend has been telling me he ghosts a lot of people because it's hard for him to talk to people
But
But he never used to and
And I guess I just
I'm scared of losing them
And
And
One of my closest irl friends (as toxic as she is) has just been making obvious excuses of why she hasnt emailed me when we call
Cuz when we call she easily can email me
But she cant email me on her own accord??
And then one of my closest nontoxic irl friends hasn't responded since halfway through summer
And I'm just so *tired* of losing everybody I ****ing care about
And
That's why I've been so depressed lately, ig-
Reserve-Komaeda[OP]
24.08.2020 04:19
LinkAnd then whenever my friends that do talk to me vent to me
I just cant help
And yet here I am
Wishing I could get help like the ****ing hypocrite I am
I hate it
I hate it I hate it I hate it
I'm so selfish, I'm so obsessive, I'm so *useless*
And nobody can even tell me I'm not because it's true
I am
I'm a ****ing terrible person
That's probably why not even toxic friends care about me anymore
Reserve-Komaeda[OP]
24.08.2020 04:24
LinkAnd I'm just
Waiting
I'm waiting for him to leave me as well
I'm waiting for my first actual love that I've been with for two years to just
Tell me
I'm waiting for him to tell me he hates our relationship
Because I don't even do much for him
The best thing I've done for him was give him a Kokichi poster or when I got us tickets to that dance which he didnt even enjoy
That's it
And he gives me so much more than what I can ever give him
Hell, I gave him dead roses because I thought he might like them
Like
What the hell
What is *wrong* with me