Yeah

Yeah.. He had kittens with a stray cat and my neighbors dog bit one of their heads off and i never sae the other two again...

;-;

I would come home feeling bad about myself and especially my eyes and he would be sleeping on the floor next to his litter and i would just pick him up and pet him and it was a coping system

His name was Ashes

he got hit by a car and my uncle discovered him and i ended up seeing his body and crying.. I think that is what sparked my gore trigger

I saw his dead body with all these maggots on him and he was so bloodied up it was gruesome

I was there when we buried him in my backyard I even drew a picture and put it down there with him I was about my sister, jasmine's age- 9

Im getting too emotional over something i didnt mean to get emotional about-

I know but it was in 4th grade i just feel stupid still feeling like this

A part of me feels like it was because i saw his lifeless body that i should not have seen at all but i dont know