it would be so awesome and cool if the epilepsy didnt all of the sudden get way worse and my mental health is already just ****y so now i just feel completely hollow and then today i actually felt a real emotion for the first time in like weeks and it was pure anger because i was arguing with this year 9 named ****ing bernard good god thats such an awful name that i sometimes hang out with because he has no respect for anyone at all for some reason and yeah i just got really really pissed and now i just feel both hollow and also like emotionless but im also pissed so i guess i dont feel emotionless but there was a few weeks where i dont even know what i was doing