Its conufsing whether people like me for who I am, how i act, or how I look. I get people saying that I'm a great person who is loved by everyone, but from the way they treat me you wouldnt think anyone ever thought that at all. Being "impossible to read"? Where the f*ck did that come from? It came from me. Becaise I'm so complex and all over the place, I 'll an expert at showing no emotion, I never let anyone into my life. Should I change that..?

My ego is thin, and almost nonexistent. People dont think they hurt me when they say something about me because of how chill and relaxed I seem on the outside. Well guess what Billy or Jenny, I'm NOT chill when you get to know me. I bet we dont even know each other's AGE! Stop making wild assumptions! I may LOOK relaxed and chill, but I'm NOT! How woild yoi like it if I talked about you in front of your face, and expected you to be calm and relaxed all the time? It DOESNT MAKE SENSE.

"Disclusive loner" Yeah, that describes me perfeclty. Sure. I may close myself out from a lot of people, but I have a lot of friends, you just don't understand and accept them like I do. You dont understand me like my friends do. You laugh because I get stuck on words and stutter, but thats only because my mind moves faster than my mouth. That's only something that people who new me on a personal level would know. I'm not stupid. I'm not disabled or any of that sh*t. You just dont understand me. Yeah, I'm a girl. So what? Does that really affect my chance of goi g somewhere in life?

No, it doesn't. It doesn't keep me from doing anything. So maybe, before you open your mouth about people you dont know, think about how they might be feeling first. Just ONCE. Consider other's feelings. Think about what they might be thinking or going through. Don't be a jack*ss and mindlessly talk about someone..

Wow, I had to vent today, didn't I?

It's fine. It's just the kind if person I am.. And Im the only one too :')