some of you probably havent noticed... but if you have ive been pretty upset about some things..

im really good at hiding some things.. but i guess you can kinda see it in some of my drawings? if you're good at that idk... but... yeah... first off id like to explain why i even tried finding this sight, i wanted to show off my talent and improve my art, which i have greatly! but... ive grown attached to people who have been leaving abruptly.... which is more stress added for my real life.. second, FA is a HUGE escape for me.... i use it to gain friends i could never have irl.. mostly because im antisocial, for example, theres a new kid at school and i wanted to talk to them but all of my other friends were surrounding them.. i wonder if ill get replaced.. this is also a cause of my anxiety, another reason why i usually say "i regret this" when i have an 18+ drawing or something.

then theres my... family... im in a fosterhome at the moment... since January 10th last year... and well at the moment my real mother is pressuring me asking me what i want to do.. Im only 13! i dont know what i want!! i can hardly choose what i want for dinner!! if you're one of those people who are like "oh shes just doing this for attention" IM NOT-- i just.. want to inform some of you who care, that i might have random abrupt mood switches... like if we are rping and i randomly say " shit gtg" or something...(sorry bout that dark) its probably because im having a hard time responding and whatever.. fourth, when im sad, my body and mind like to shut down on me, so i.... really cant vent much... because i just want to die.. and well, i just go limp.. basically shutting down.. and when i cry it hurts my head.. so im just.. so tired of all of the pressure at the moment.. so if i just randomly take a week break thats why..

thanks for whoever is reading this, i guess... ~MM

ik ik.. but i forgot to mention they're a trans.. girl to guy.. and i really want to meet them bc ive never had a trans friend... but i mean like, he's really prissy and im pretty sure he'd look down on someone like me