does anyone want to know
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AutumnandTord 
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25.02.2019
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AutumnandTord[OP]
25.02.2019 22:09
LinkThe moment my cat died, right there in my arms. I know I shouldn’t feel any regret towards that...after all, she was an old cat. She probably would have died sooner or later but...I feel like I could have helped and not watch her splutter up blood and choke. Maybe if I hadn't been young and mindless, I would have been able to at least try help her instead of knowing I will probably never get over her death.
Savannah(the name of my cat) hadn't really been very friendly. She kind of just moved around and acted like us humans didn't exist. Sometimes, I could get her to let me pet her but it was hard to do that. I always pestered her, and one day I decided to pick her up, and for the first time, she let me. I held her happily and then she started choking and spluttering blood and I watched, confused, until she stopped moving.
AutumnandTord[OP]
25.02.2019 22:09
LinkAnother regret I have is asking my dad about my uncle, Jared. He had died a few years back and I had thought it was from a car crash. Apparently, that wasn't the case. Dad told me that Uncle Jared might have been on drugs because he had a heart attack in bed and was pretty young for one. He also had locked the door so the people searching for him had to break down the door to find him. Why were they searching for him? Well, he had apparently been missing for around a month without people realizing until someone pointed out his absence. I wish I never asked about it...then I would at least not feel like I should be angry at him.
To continue the conversation we had, my dad told me that basically everyone on his side of the family had been addicted at least once and almost died, died, or whent slightly crazy. This part of the conversation made me regret the choice of asking the question in the first place but also led me to ask my father, “Why is my family so messed up?”
AutumnandTord[OP]
25.02.2019 22:09
LinkAll he did to answer was laugh and then hug me, but never said anything about the subject again.
DunsparceLover
25.02.2019 22:12
Linkoh, thats sad, do you need support?
AutumnandTord[OP]
25.02.2019 22:14
Linkim fine -w-
my life just sucks is all, but there are people with worse problems
tbh im actually kind of surprised people took the time to read this :/
dont yall have somethin better to do?
yeah, u right... i'm glad you're not depressed or anything for those things... bc some people can be like... suicidal bc of their regrets and personal problems
ok
so i have a friend who is basically real-life papyrus
how can i be depressed with that?
...and also all my other friends are depressed other than my papy friend...If i was depressed...well...it wouldn't really be a big help huh?