I dont know

I think the real problem is people think "normal" actually exists cause I'll tell you, it doesn't. Normal is the real abnormality.

Maybe you have depression?

Nothing! Nothing is wrong with you! You can't always control what happens in life, please remember that! After everything you've done for me, please don't throw yourself away like this! I can feel it, something happened. Please, talk to me and tell me what!