I'm so sorry. vent
34 comments
Illusion[OP]
26.01.2018 01:32
LinkI should have been there for him. I shouldn't have ignored him. I should have supported him. I was selfish.
flash322
26.01.2018 01:32
Linkwhat happend
Illusion[OP]
26.01.2018 01:33
LinkMy best friend just took his life.
Illusion[OP]
26.01.2018 01:34
LinkI'm sitting in my room, crying my eyes out.
AceTheFox
26.01.2018 01:34
LinkLexi nuuuuu *virtual hug*
Illusion[OP]
26.01.2018 01:35
Linkthere is no possible way you can make me feel better. dont even try. and dont give me that "he's in a better place shit" because he isn't.
leotheloser
26.01.2018 01:51
LinkOh my god.
That's so horrible. If there is anything I can do, ever, I'll do everything I can. I'm so, so sorry that happened. God, I wish there was something I could've done.
I don't know what you're going through, I haven't had that exact experience, but someone dear to me did die. Your feelings aren't invalid, and I know you feel guilty. I don't have any other words other than I'm so sorry, and if you need me I'm here.
Silver-the-Rabbit
26.01.2018 02:04
LinkI just.. I wish I could help. I honestly do. Your situation is.. dire, and I feel really sorry.. I just-- ugh, I can't say anything good.. I'm very sorry Illusion.. I really am.. I don't know what exactly the pain of losing a friend like that is like, but I sure as hell do know that people do die, even the close, even the far, the sad, happy, angry; etc. I can't stress enough how sorry that I feel for your loss.
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But we're here for you, Illusion. We love you. We are all sorry for what happened, and we hope that as time passes things will get better (I.. don't know if that was well said, and I apologize deeply).. <3..
Illusion[OP]
26.01.2018 02:09
Linkthe pain is worse than physical pain.
leotheloser
26.01.2018 02:33
LinkI know it is... If there's anything I can do. Tell me.
Hey little man, your right. There is no possible way we can make you feel better. Infact, your right, in my religion if your take your own life, you will infact go to hell. (Well in my religion). Im sorry, but you must be strong, and cope with this. Life is a long path, and every choice you make is like a road you take. You want to end up in someplace better, so taking the road of depression, will lead you to a worse road. It will only lead you to the suicidal road and end up in the same situation as your freind, with another freind doing the same mistake you did. It would be an never ending chain.
Look, we, us people, are your road signs. We tell you to make right choices, and some bad people tell you to make wrong. Everybody here wants to help you, we really do, but you are the only one who can choose the paths in this game called Life. Please, choose carefully.
Hey little man, your right. There is no possible way we can make you feel better. Infact, your right, in my religion if your take your own life, you will infact go to hell. (Well in my religion). Im sorry, but you must be strong, and cope with this. Life is a long path, and every choice you make is like a road you take. You want to end up in someplace better, so taking the road of depression, will lead you to a worse road. It will only lead you to the suicidal road and end up in the same situation as your freind, with another freind doing the same mistake you did. It would be an never ending chain.
Look, we, us people, are your road signs. We tell you to make right choices, and some bad people tell you to make wrong. Everybody here wants to help you, we really do, but you are the only one who can choose the paths in this game called Life. Please, choose carefully.
Don't ****ing tell someone that their best friend who felt their life was so bad that they had to end it that they're in ****ing hell for it. Children go to heaven no matter their sins.
No, it might not be true. Its just what i believe, to be honest, do we truly knows what happens when you die??? No. Do we truly know there a heaven, a hell? What if we just die and thats it???
But look little man, you cant be depressed over this. Please dont be. We all want you to be okay.
you cant?? Of course you can. But would your freind wanted that?? To have your life dark and gloomy just for him?? If he did, then thats being selfish.
I'M NOT BEING SELFISH! AND NO! YOU CANT! IF I COULD CHOOSE, I WOULDN'T HAVE A ROPE IN MY ROOM, JUST WAITING FOR ME TO TIE IT TO THE CIELING AND PUT MY ****ING HEAD THROUGH IT. I WOULDN'T HAVE A RAZOR BLADE! I WOULDN'T WANT TO KILL MYSELF MORE THAN I EVER HAD RIGHT NOW! YOU CLEARLY DO NOT UNDERSTAND WHAT IM GOING THROUGH!
Nope, i probably dont. And you know what, if im offending you in any way, please tell me. Ill leave this conversation. Im truley am i sorry if i offended you, but please, keep in mind that many other people love you, and want to keep you around as long as you live. Please stay safe, and even if you are pissed off at me, i will always be on your side trying to keep you going. Ill be the person you can throw your anger at. I will leave after this message tho.
Also i know i'd said i'd leave but, i really dont want to have a bad relationship with you, can we be freinds? If no, i understand
You want your life to be a dream, but even good dreams have bad parts.
