one of my friends used to have a crush on me, and she admitted it after like 3 months. when i said i was aroace, her heart broke. she distanced herself for a long time. i blamed myself, i still do, because im an ignorant dumba$$ who doesn't understand emotion. when she finally talked to me again, she was crushing on someone else. and all of a sudden i didm;t know whether i did like her or not. her crush is also my friend, and she beat me up recently. now her crush is gonna ask her out on wednesday and im over here feeling sorry for myself like a selfish f*cking bish. but everyone thinks im okay. So I am.