tbh I go to therapy sometimes and I just feel v judged whenever I go? Like their responses are like,,,? Okay thanks for the help? Idk I just personally think that it's better to talk with a close friend or just anyone that you trust a lot and make an effort to try and get better Like,,, just acting happy and telling myself that I'm happy actually makes me a lot better,,, idk how u r or what works for you but I hope that helps