honestly, I think the best and most comforting idea of after life is reincarnation. no trouble with getting tired of eternity, because your memories are reset. but no need to deal with a real end. you could experience everything ever, and it will never get old, because you wont always remember certain things, because they were in past lives.

I love to think about reincarnation but I always get upset thinking about any of this stuff. everytime I think of mortality or eternity, I get a really heavy feeling in my chest, and I feel physically and emotionally bad. reincarnation is great, but I cant get myself to truly believe it. I want to believe it becuase its comforting, but I just dont believe it. I hope its real, but I cant be sure.

bot heaven and hell soud like bad ideas to me. Christianity isnt a bad thing, but both outcomes to me seem so, idk how to say it. forever with something, and no way to do anything about it once its done, it sounds terrifying. whether its forever with good or bad, I feel like eventually you somehow become numb to either despite gods power to make you feel it. idk.

if god is truly omniscient as the bible says, then I find it hard to not believe that god had malicious intent when he made us. or at least he didnt have the intent of just niceness. god created us knowing what the outcome would be, knowing everything. so why create us when there are many of us already doomed. and why damn us eternally for it if he knew we would do such things and make such choices. he created us for what? I truly dont know. I dont see why he would make us and not give us the chances we need and everything we newd to choose him when he knows what to do to make us choose him. I do t see why he did what he did.

I dont understand it at all. and once you are damned you are damned forever. no going back no second chances. you get one little human life to make the most important decision of your existence, sometimes people dont ever even hear of god in their short time as human, and if they arent lucky enough to believe in god and be saved by the end, they are made to suffer for the rest of eternity? that doesnt sound like a good thing. especially when he knows he will be damning these people, and is just letting it play out for whatever reasons

he knows he will be putting these people to suffer, he knows the choices they will make. he is not letting it play out to see the outcome, because he is already supposed to know it. so why? why let it play out and why let them suffer, he is supposed to love us all, so why?

I dont believe god is as good as the bible makes him out to be, if he is real.