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sun and earth partners in time
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guys. i have a confession.
by:
AdrianaLove 
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11.04.2019
12 comments
Kandi-the-alien
11.04.2019 22:29
LinkPp fell off
AdrianaLove[OP]
11.04.2019 22:38
Linknah.
Ok. it's quite odd for me to say, but,
i want to leave. And i have my appropriate reasons of why.
1.) this site is very addictive.
2.) i have set goals on here and i REALLY want to achieve them.
3.) because i have many people on here that had supported me since day one.
4.) because this is the only slice of memory i have of long time friends.
you guys are like, literally the only people i can be open to. i get really anxious when trying to tell people things in person, and it causes me to become really teary, and then i end up crying. i may be a person of being happy or straight up petty and leave with a smile. but that smile is a smile of regret and i take that regret and pull it out on my.
i waste like at the least 80% of my time on days i'm not in school on here because of how much you people can easily make my day, just by saying "hi" or just commenting in general.
i just really want to thank you all for getting me this far, and sticking up for me at hard times.
but- there is also downf
*downfall*
i've said this before, but one of my BIGGEST pet peeves is being ignored. I hate it when i get ignored because i am a human being. and also it can show a sign of any problem you have with me.
i know there's many people out there who can have a problem with me.
i also think im a dead user who just sits here, literally slowly die, drawing a picture -could be for like hours- and people just pass by it.
now i know i can't control that, but i've always had a problem with that on here. i sometimes stop and ask myself: "why am i doing this? i have literally over 500 followers dead or alive, and i'm not noticed. Why do i waste my time drawing, expecting to have someone comment?"
i get really upset when i do these stuff and nothing changes.
like why do you guys follow me?
i hold back many things because im afraid of starting drama.
but we not gonna talk about all this sad and depressed crap.
i just really want to thank you guys for being there for me on here and all the people on here that ACTUALLY care about me. i wanna thank people who help me do better and go beyond my limits.
i wanna thank the people who loves do joke around with me and the people i can call family.
you guys are the reason i want to last longer on here, and the key to my virtual life. i wouldn't be able to live another day without not even one person on here.
this is exactly shy i cry when you guys hurt yourself or do even worse. because i REALLY DO care about y'all. i really do love you all, weither i know you or not.
and i really want to do what i can to make you guys get farther in life.
but there's always a time where the string cuts, and where the end of the road is. but not for me, because im a person that won't give up! i may say it more than 5 times a day, but it doesn't mean i won't keep going. it means "i'll take a break, then come back." and that's what FA is like to me.
it's like a place where i can say, "take a break, then come back to continue making your goal. don't stop. this is only the beginning."
and i truly want to hold on to that thought.
HELL!
sometimes i say to myself "i want ALL of my suffering to end. just why can't i die yet!?" but i know because committing suicide is a very selfish choice, and i can loose a chance of meeting people i could probably never meet.
and that's why i hold on to my string and not let that rope cut.
and just to be real, i may not have depression, but with this creative mind of mine, those thoughts will ALWAYS become vents and be turned down. I can become VERY suicidal and i DO need help. but i won't let these thoughts stab me in. the back and make me bend my knees. my mind is stronger than it may seem, and i push thoughts like these to the side no matter how hurtfull they may be.
but to sum this up, because im gonna cry soon :), no matter how hard i want to leave, i won't. and nothing won't get in my way.
i love all you guys and i thank y'all for EVERYTHING. even if some of these things i can hate ALOT.
thanks for the support! and enjoy your life,
-@AdrianaLove
Tbh I... know how you feel sometimes i spend DAYS on something that I’m really proud of, for it to just die. It hurts but eventually in the end I know that “hey i’ve got hundereds of other anims that have been noticed” and that is why I’m still here, because I know that at least some people don’t think I’m invincible. I don’t know if you saw this or not but if you did I hope it helped.