ill be finished typing soon

(I’m not looking for any sympathy this is only here because i have no other place to let my feelings out. Comment if you REALLLYYY want to, but im more acknowledging you read it, and just please dont think im looking for all that good love, because i know im not gonna actually get it from being a grumpy ass like i am now, and id rather people like me when im not venting. And no, this has NOTHING TO DO WITH FLIPANIM OR ANYONE ON IT) Hhh feeling sorta alienated from every group online or not i join. Do i come off as too enthusiastic? Sometimes, do i come off as sorta dead? Sometimes its like i have two sides. Yeah, i know i’m one of those people who just goes against everything, not just because i want to, maybe because i have some genuine care towards that character everyone else hates. I’m having trouble just figuring out who the **** i am, and its a shame certain people ive known expect me to know them through and through (never realised being virtually shouted at hurts, ive never been in a- [to be

--shitty friendship before in so long). I only feel at home with very few people, and the rest i feel very different from. Everyone else seems really cool when im around the web (and it sorta intimidates me), and sometimes everyone seems like doofuses. I just feel really conflicted with myself, and sometimes the very fact that im alone in a context is frustrating. Im so sorry for posting this, again heed the message: I DONT WANT ATTENTION JUST BECAUSE IM WHINING, SO PLEASE DONT EVEN BOTHER GIVING SYMPATHY