I don't know if I'm depressed or happy right now- So I was just outside listening to this https://youtu.be/H87GqJujcOk and for some odd reason it was bringing back memories of my mom, and I have no idea where she is right now. My dad pushed her away for someone younger when I was 5 and I haven't seen her since. But then I thought about my friend, because it was snowing and her name was Madison. When I was in 5th grade I had just moved to the school and she was my first friend. She was my best friend until 7th grade, but then I moved again. Now I have absolutely no friends and for some reason I'm crying but I can't really say I'm sad..? I'm just confused. I think they're happy tears, for the time I got to spend with these people.