This has nothing to do with FA only with my friends. With my friends I feel like they talking behind my back and know every secret and find it funny. Funny that I have depression. Funny that I know things I shouldn't do. Funny that I do self-harm. I'm sick of that feeling. I feel like some of my friends are mad at me for telling them why I didn't want to be friends anymore. The reason why I didn't want to be friends with them is because I saw someone who I trusted deeply and loved just break me and make like a puppet. I saw that person in my friends and I was scared I was going to end up being hurt and even more depressed. I don't want to die.. That person made me so very very very close to suiciding and I'm lucky that people online have helped me but depression doesn't go that easily. It stays with you.