i've been watchin lots of tv gave up on my sleeping trying not to hate myself eating shit that makes me feel like i'm a greasy lazy mother****er it's 4am and i'm supposed to be at work at 10 but i ****ing hate my job so i'll sleep in and hope they fire me because i'm no quitter i've got a paper due on Tuesday that i haven't even started who really cares about the end result if i didn't try cuz it's all bullshit it's getting colder outside these days and i've been watchin lots of tv gave up on my sleeping trying not to hate myself eating shit that makes me feel like i'm a greasy lazy mother****er in the end we're all the same just empty smiles with forgettable names your excuses don't mean anything to me my family thinks i have potential but i use it all on things that shouldn't matter (but to me they really matter) cuz they take my mind off of the future i tell myself that if i can't pay for my college i'll just run away and sleep inside