girl, i go through the same thing... even though words might be less effected but i'm still trying my best to help you the best way i can...it's alright your never alone nobody dies alone we all die together.we are people (like you) that cab still be happy your not as alone you think you are i can understand you,i can understand your pain and agony i been through 1000 times and you will too but soon it will all be in the past