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StarlightRain 
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21.06.2018
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StarlightRain[OP]
21.06.2018 06:40
LinkSee, I don’t want to get featured just be popular or to impress anyone, honestly, I just want at least a single feature to have some sort of recognition or worth, I see all these anims with all the good animators drawn on them and I never see myself on well... any of them, I know I’m not nearly as good as anyone like Dragonhooked or Kaokitty or even HGViolet but I just want to be noticed but I don’t want to be too greedy and become a top artist if you understand, I just wanna prove to myself that yes, I am good enough to be featured, but it doesn’t appear to be working out.
StarlightRain[OP]
21.06.2018 06:42
LinkAnd then I’m stressed out a lot while I’m on here, and seeing awesome features really drains my self esteem, but it hurts worse when my friends like Memefruit are depressed and you can’t do anything to help, and you just have this suffocating sense of helplessness, you want to help them but you can’t...
StarlightRain[OP]
21.06.2018 06:45
LinkAnd my home life hasn’t been the best either, lately, my dad and his girlfriend are going to be getting married soon but my dad’s girlfriend has repeatedly accused me of “trying to destroy their relationship” so it always feels like I never belong there, and it feels like every fight they have is over something I said or did...
StarlightRain[OP]
21.06.2018 06:47
LinkAnd my life at school also isn’t great, lately in my friend group some of my friends appear to be straying away and they aren’t telling me anything so it leaves me to contemplate and regret my choices, leaving me feeling like a total asshat
StarlightRain[OP]
21.06.2018 06:49
LinkAlong with the constant bullying, oh here we go, I’m always teased and taunted and bullied over my short hair, flat chest, shortness, and blue hair, they absolutely love to call me a guy, the teachers never do anything about it, and I have over half the school bullying me, I didn’t even do anything besides exist, everyone just hates me...
StarlightRain[OP]
21.06.2018 06:50
LinkAnyway I’m done venting now, I doubt anyone will even read this.
StarlightRain[OP]
21.06.2018 06:54
LinkOh right, I’m also going to have to put my dog down tomorrow, yay me! ;-:
Zeechan
21.06.2018 06:55
LinkWhat u mean u have to put ur dog down?
StarlightRain[OP]
21.06.2018 06:55
LinkI’m putting it to sleep
Zeechan
21.06.2018 06:56
LinkOh....
StarlightRain[OP]
21.06.2018 06:57
LinkAaaaah... **** my life I’m a god damn shit show...
Zeechan
21.06.2018 07:00
LinkNO YOUR NOT!!! Don't think that!
StarlightRain[OP]
21.06.2018 07:02
LinkHonestly i’m At my lowest point in life, I put myself here because I’m a jackass, I made too many mistakes.
Zeechan
21.06.2018 07:07
LinkEveryone makes mistakes for my age I did a
Bad mistake ..... ur not a jackass! U can bring urself up from the low point to the high point just try and believe please
StarlightRain[OP]
21.06.2018 07:09
LinkIf you think I’m gonna hurt myself I’m not, don’t worry about me that much, I have promised myself that I wouldn’t, plus I have friends that care about me.
StarlightRain[OP]
21.06.2018 07:10
LinkAnd I am the most dertermined person you will ever meet, but even I have to vent some times
Zeechan
21.06.2018 07:10
LinkTrue true I worried to much I'm sorry
StarlightRain[OP]
21.06.2018 07:12
LinkIt’s fine, I have thoughts of “that” occasionally but as I said, I have the ability to find light in the darkest situation, honestly I’m feeling much better after venting
Zeechan
21.06.2018 07:13
LinkOh ok...
StarlightRain[OP]
21.06.2018 07:14
LinkYou helped a lot actually... thank you ^^