He.... was abusive to my mom and I and he always got drunk....

thank you Bonelord, i've tried fighting back from his aggressive actions once and he nearly killed me.. actually literally, so im a little hesitant crossing him. but i will never stop wanting to make him feel the pain my mom and i felt, gone or not

i-im sorry... i didn't mean to make you feel bad for me... i don't want anyone to feel bad for me.....

i just wanted to share a relieving moment with you guys.....

Oh... that's why he left

I called the police and he ran out the door..... I don't know if they caught him or not...

B-But i made you cry..... i didnt mean it....

*hugs* I.. I dont know if this is important.. but... before he ran out the door he said "If i don't get caught by the police, im coming back for your snitching ass and im gonna kill you while your mother watches. Don't think i wont you little pussy. I will come back" then he just ran... im honestly scared and dont know what to do if he does....

I do now.... yes.... Those times I was drawing on a phone I sneaked it because my dad was watching porn on my computer... :/

yes....

Okay?......

732...819...4....... I cant tell you the other numbers ;-;

i'd rather not, im too scared ;-;

*hugs back* thank you Shadow..

You're so sweet.... thank you again..

Unfortunately it happens to many people, im glad im "free" but i just feel so bad for the people that go through this everyday of their lives. I hope my dad get's arrested one day so the next woman he "loves" doesn't get the same thing my mom and i did

N-No!! D-Don't cry... please dont cry.. im sorry i made you cry... i-i didnt mean to... and no.. you don't.... i don't wish the pain i went through physically and emotionally on A N Y O N E... i just want people to be happy.. and i express that through my art. That's why i draw, to take my mind off of my father. I taught myself how to draw and it became a habit... i dont want you to be sad....

You're a very good person and I admire that. I love you for that even. I can relate to the things that you're saying. Im the same way, all I want is for people to be happy. The only reason my dad turned on me was because when he was abusing my mother, I would always tell him to leave her alone. I would always jump in or tell him to hurt me not her, and I always got the worse of it. I got the harassment and stuff like that. My mom was soon ignored and I was his "target". I used to cut myself becuase He to MADE me, giving me threats, telling me that if i didnt he would cut me instead of me cutting myself. Im thankful that you care for me and I do believe you, I always will. I wouldn't let anyone hurt you either no matter what, and I would help you when you needed it, heck, if you let me, I would probably be your best friend, the friend that you could talk to when you had a question or where going through a tough time. I listen to people and even if it kills me, I will try to help them, no matter what

*hugs back* I do too... maybe we can get to know eachother....

Why?.... he would of made me curse you out and make you feel like you where nothing.. just like he made me do to almost all of my friends....

But....

But i've been alone for so long.. I dont know how to react to this...

Cause i didn't want people to worry....

n...o...…. >n<'

. . .

n....o...im to depressed to pretend im not. Ive been hiding this for so ****ING long and I can't hide it anymore. I've hid for so long, pretending I was fine when I knew I wasn't, and look what it did to me.... it made me unstable and I just feel mad. I feel like dying and that's probably whats going to happen if I keep this whole hiding thing up. Its not healthy to hide things like this and that's what ive been doing...bottling up feelings that weren't supposed to be held.

Sure I guess...… :/

*blushes hard*…… I...I have to draw this....

You said I had to draw it

So.. do I have to or no?

****....

Are you talking about... brownie?...

or... Cookie....

or.. maybe Cody?....

oh.... him....

I dont want to talk about him...

*nose bleeds* Why does this always happen ;-;