Last night my friend lost the battle against cancer.. I forgot to raise money for her and it's all my fault.. I lied to my friend and showed her my wallet. I said that was the stuff I had raised. But i didn't even do anything. It's all my fault. The only thing this does i make my depression worse! why can't anything good ever happen to me?? I'm just a waste of time. It's my fault Ciara died..