Ive been thinking about things and Ive realized I have so little experience in having human emotions

tbh Ive found so many people attractive but Ive only ever had like, one real legit crush before, and I dont know if Ive ever felt that again or if I will and uh it scares me,,,

like, Ive never really liked people in that sense. Im trying to think back to all my crushes and uh hhh h I never really liked them and Ive never felt romantic longing ever since one person hhh h hh

had to watse all my yearning on a boy just cause he liked minecraft and his hair looked soft smh I was a dumb 3rd grader

why cant I fall in love that esily again,,, why do I have to heckin talk to people to gain attraction, Im not social like I used to be,,

chaotic dumbass I think Im a demiromamtic and it sucks cause I just dont talk to people