Your my hope

I was abandoned and was forced to care for my little brother when i was 1 and I had to deal with bloody gory movies and abuse, this when on until I was 3, And to this day I have flashbacks about it, I'm bullied everyday, and I'm suicidal, But I think of how the people who DO care about me would react, what they would do, how much they would blame themselves, and I fight harder to not let my depression, nor my bullies control me

I now feel uncomfortable if my back is turned to a guy and fear any small noise

even if other people want u to, don't commit suicide

^^ if there is anything I can do to help please let me know! ;w;