And I just... It really makes me scared to be friends with anybody else because I feel like I'm gonna **** something up

and it's really hard for me to get over something that has impacted me so negatively because I feel like it's gonna happen again paraniod over my past Even though it may not have seemed like it, I was really scared to love again... and I just

It's her. But that was a long time ago.

No, not Ashley.

Well, maybe a little bit, but not mostly.