well ever since she died I just feel worthless and I don't know why I could never help her If I could save Nicola why couldn't I save her? I also miss her like all hell it hurts the feeling won't go away I can't really describe it then Cloe died to I didn't think she would do anything so I didn't really try as hard as I could have.. she might hate me but thats almost just as bad whatever happened I know we will never talk again that also hurts I feel like I messed it all up and after I helped Nicola the first time I thought she would be fine I stopped talking to her for most of the time the second time she didn't say she was gonna do it but I guess she did... then the night Void tried 2 kill herself I cut thats also the day my mom found out I thought she would be worried or something but she just got mad I realized I was unwanted and she hated me so I started pretending to be happy at home like she wanted me to then I did it at school people didn't seem worried after that and I didn't want people 2 be so I ke