Im scared..

T^T It's so hard.. and most people don't give a shit about it being so hard. Thye just think Oh, okay well whatever, My life must be better than yours, but they're wrong T^T I just.. I need her and I don't want to think about the bad stuff but I am and I can't help it and it's so hard to even not think about it T^T. I've tried listening to music, making a schedule, drawing, watching youtube videos, and stuff it just won't work T^T

What would work is if my girlfriend was actually wake but now im starting to thing she's either dead or never gonna wake up T^T she never deserved or chose to be in a coma, she never chose to have diabetes She never could chose. Until it came to me she had a chance but now she's in a coma so what chance would she have left if what she wants is to wake up because I can gaurenteee she is so scared right now, all she can do is hear while she is in a coma while im scared as hell and sad T^T

Every time I try to take my mind off of earth shit and stuff it never works because I know it's real and stuff and It's ****ing scary and I'm trying to live my life to the complete fullest but I can't because I'm just so scared and I don't have my baby beside me and with me T^T..

I would LOVE to see her but my parents dont have the time to drive me down there nor want to spend plane flight money to her T^T

i might sneak my phoe tonight

so i can stay calm

Night