Vent.
18 comments
Ryushi[OP]
23.11.2019 17:32
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Ryushi[OP]
23.11.2019 17:35
LinkI wanna die, but there you are, expectant eyes watching my heart as it beats... I tried starving myself.. 2 days and my parents restrained me.. Forcing me to eat... Smile.. Cause if i dont ill scare the customers away.. Be happy and healthy... You think thats easy..? Its hard to stay sane.. I wanna lose it.. I wanna create conflict.. I wanna hurt someone... But i stay down... Im a dog on a chain arent i..
Ryushi[OP]
23.11.2019 17:48
LinkIs it weird that i love blood... Ah.. I remember when my parents got mad at me for picking at my scab to see the blood drip from my leg... It was a weird habit i do admit.. But you have to admit.. Blood is beautiful.. It just pisses me off when people hurt eachother.. For nothing... Just to see the pretty blood... Im not a crazy ass killer or anything dont worry lol i just cant help it...
Ryushi[OP]
23.11.2019 17:55
LinkAm i weird...? Yup. I can be creepy.. Im trying to quit that habit.. I was never aloud to play with other kids so its difficult for me to act normal.. Sorry i might snap some times..
Ok
listen.
Im not mad at you for doing all you can do alright? I am not mad. I am just afraid to be honest. Because I don’t want to lose you. I watch everyone else with their couples and.. We’ll I mean it’s the first time I’ve ever really felt this way. The first time I’ve ever felt alone like that.
Im not upset with you
Im upset with myself
For letting myself be so selfish
Im upset with myself for letting me be so sad
When I know how hard you’re trying
Because it doesn’t matter ami.
It’s just you and me
It’s just you and me against the world ok? Promise me it’s you always
It’s always us
Just us ok? If I didn’t like you I wouldn’t allow myself to be emotional towards you
Im back
don’t let anything get you down ok? I’ll be relying on you to keep your promise.
So
I’ll be reliant on you to keep it. And I’ll keep mine,
Which is to try to never ever make you feel like you’re not good enough for me
Because you are baby