THE urgency is undeniable, and in these moments, all I can think about is getting that one, fleeting moment of relief…. I NEED IT. I yearn for just one puff. Anything helps. actually. and when the smoke hits my lungs, I feel it—the relief. It’s as if my whole self exhales with the cigarette…….

A cigarette to me isnt just a cigarette. Its more than that. Its my entire life.

i miss my husband now where is he