Hypocrites.
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-Melancholy-Tea-[OP]
07.04.2024 07:38
LinkDo I need to slap a label on myself when I make new friends that I have bpd..some people act so surprised when I get a lil manic and depressed
Yah “mood swings” is different from ****ing bpd dumbass 😍
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-Melancholy-Tea-[OP]
07.04.2024 07:41
LinkHow dare you take advantage of my kind heart? 😇😇😇😇 lmao no no I’m the manipulative obsessive one yes yes I am I am most definitely my bad my bad I don’t deserve friends right? I deserve this? I deserve to think about suicide daily? I deserve to slit my wrist till it hurts to use? I deserve to be all alone all day right? All alone struggling so desperately to find a reason to live? I’ve decided to go ahead and block the people I don’t want to interact with any more, no matter how much I explain that they’ve wronged me, it’ll be pinned on me and nothing I say will ever get through
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-Melancholy-Tea-[OP]
07.04.2024 07:45
LinkScrew me for being kind, screw me for thinking about your feelings when you’ve never not ONCE thought about mine. Screw me screw me screw me screw me for doing things you like for your satisfaction screw me for minding how you might’ve reacted screw me for getting pissy when you don’t even TRY to let me speak, let me explain, let me talk
Maybe I am selfish, maybe I am a horrible person
But what does that make you for making me feel like this?
I have very few relationships left, very. Very few. There’s only one person in this world who I believe ACTUALLY cares for me and they’re barely online anymore
Screw me for trying to make more friends yah? Screw me for believing they’d stay this time
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-Melancholy-Tea-[OP]
07.04.2024 07:50
LinkI knew it all along I knew it I knew it I knew it I knew it
I wasn’t even lying, I asked you once before I told you once before and you did NOTHING
NOTHING CHANGED. nothing. NO ONE. is worth that amount of effort to make happy
Why do I need to take care of you and do what you want to make you happy when I rarely ever get the same treatment? WHY? NO ONE IN THIS WORLD IS WORTH THAT MUCH PAIN IM SO TIRED OF GIVING MYSELF TO PEOPLE WHO DONT CARE FOR ME. all of my practice all of my skill
I KNOW. I know. I’m good at what I do. I know it deserves so so so much more. My work my art. Everything I do deserves ATTENTION. and I’m. Stuck. With what I have, I refuse to be happy with that. It’s like I’m a puzzle piece in a puzzle that was cut the wrong way. I don’t fit in, no matter where I try to force myself in
I’m like a ****ing parasite. I don’t even have a real personality
I’ve never liked anything beyond the surface
I’ve never been interested in much anything
I just try to fit in to share what I have
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-Melancholy-Tea-[OP]
07.04.2024 07:54
LinkI’m so tired of being talked over don’t you understand? I just want to cut out the love i feel for the people who clearly don’t care for me
But you know it’s fine
Keep using me
It’s fine
I don’t care that much right?
You’ll just keep using me and I’ll never say anything about it because you’re all I have left!!
Who cares if I’m cutting all night waiting for MAYBE you to say something.
I expect too much out of people. I think most people are incapable of caring for others anyway. Selfish hypocrites
There’s no way
There’s just no way everyone I’ve met could be that horrible
There’s just no way that that’s been the hand I’ve been dealt
There’s just no way that I’m not the bad person that everyone says I’m not
Why would people treat me this way if not? Why would they betray me if not? What did I do? I don’t
I didn’t
I didn’t ask for this
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-Melancholy-Tea-[OP]
07.04.2024 07:57
LinkI just want to die
Apparently people like me don’t deserve a place in this world!!! Ahahahah
I was just a little girl
I didn’t ask for my own brother to touch me like that, or my own mom to treat me like I was some demon, or her boyfriend to touch me like that or the boy I met in middle school to touch me like that or my own best friend to treat me like that or my own family to treat me like this I never
I never wanted this
I just wanted to make a friend after that I came back to flipanim a little bit before I told anyone about it. And when I did. Everything changed
I can never go back
I can never ever go back
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-Melancholy-Tea-[OP]
07.04.2024 08:01
LinkI get so jealous
People get talked to even after they have similar breakdowns like me
But for the past few months I vent and no one ever asks
I know no one cares that much
But god
I’m alive. I’m alive I’m alive I’m alive.
In February I took handful of pills and survived
I was sick for days but I survived and I don’t understand
Why did I call them? I wanted to live so badly
Why do I wanna live so badly
No one cares enough right
No one ever comes to comfort me when I’m sad but I’m always expected to do the same for others or I’ll be labeled as an asshole?
You don’t even NOTICE if I comfort you
You don’t even notice that I’ll memorize the tiny things you like
You don’t even notice how much I’m willing to do to make you happy
You
I’d give anything to get that from even one person
As consistent as I am
Does that mean everyone has given up on me
Is everyone waiting for me to finally do it?
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-Melancholy-Tea-[OP]
07.04.2024 08:03
LinkI thought maybe
I really
Really hoped
Someone would stay for me
That we’d be able to get through it together
I know people can’t stay with me every day
I know people get busy
I know..please
I’m not asking for much
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-Melancholy-Tea-[OP]
07.04.2024 08:06
LinkI thought I could be saved
But now I have to wait for every day to end with no change
Hoping desperately something changes
Something WILL change. I WILL. keep going, it’s so agonizing to do it alone my body is going to be torn to shreds from the pain but I don’t want to give up
Not until the day I can say I’m happy
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-Melancholy-Tea-[OP]
07.04.2024 08:07
LinkI won’t stop
No matter how painful the cuts get
I won’t stop until I can say I’m happy every day
I won’t stop looking for it
I won’t stop
I can’t
I don’t have the luxury to do so
My art
It WILL get somewhere
I can’t give up I can’t afford to give up I can’t