I ****ING CANT RIGHT NOW. I JUST WANT TO ****ING SCREAM. THIS SHIT WON'T EVER ****ING END. I SWEAR TO GOD. IT'S DRIVING ME ****ING INSANE. IM RARELY EVER ACTUALLY HAPPY. RARELY AS IN, I DON'T EVEN REALLY KNOW HOW TO DEFINE IT. IF I EVER AM, THEN IT NEVER ****ING LASTS. I WANT TO ****ING KILL SOMEONE. IM SORRY IM A ****ING ASSHOLE. I CANT ****ING HELP IT. THE FUTURE'S ****ING TERRIFYING THE PAST IS CONSTANTLY HAUNTING ME I ****ING CANT. I JUST WANT TO CURL UP INTO A BALL ON MY BED AND NEVER ****ING WAKE UP SO I DON'T HAVE TO DEAL WITH THIS SHIT CONSTANTLY.. all i ****ing want is for this shit to ****ing stop. i just want to ****ing be a person i've always wanted. but no. im too ****ing conflicted to handle and it's ****ing bugging me.

also thanks for pissing me off even ****ing more.