Imagine forgiving people in 2021. The community is ****ing crazy, no matter how much people hurt me I forgive them. But then I lashed out too hard and people hate me for being mad? Sharing the truth? I was angry, and hurt when I went on that rant, and then people are probably spamming that I "Suck" And shit like that, I'm too scared to see the negative thoughts because I been through too much negativity, and a lot of the time I wrap some bandages around it and ignore it. But now I can't, it's coming back to me every time I push it back. I can't help myself, and I constantly forgive, and try to forget everything.

And the only true friend I have in real life is my pet fish- Online, sure, alot of friends but they never calm me better than Silver (My pet fish) I don't know, it's just the way she moves around in the tank, it soothes me for no ****ing reason-

- No chaining -