It took a few months to clean it, but it's finally almost completely done. still have to deep clean everything that was in there, but. yeah. honestly, not sure how to feel. im just kinda numb and exhausted and uncomfortable. im used to sleeping on the couch and leaving my room alone by this point, since ive been doing that for like two years now... and i dont cope well with change, even if it's positive. blegh. i think i also just need to get over the immense negative association around my room that's been built up for the last 3-ish years, too. hopefully that passes asap.