im so afraid of doing something wrong. i cant draw, cant animate, cant talk to my friends without being an asshole, i just cant do anything anymore.

im so exhausted i just wish i could live out of the moment or even stop time to build myself back up again but no my family, my friends at school, and everything around me is breaking me down piece by piece until im nothing. im so ****ing sick of it.

im panicking and freaking out about my future self and future career i just wish someone could just shoot me in the ****ing head i want all this to stop i want it to stop i dont want to suffer anymore i think nearly 3 years is enough just stop please leave me alone im tired of you telling me and making me cry and panic and hurt myself over and over again leave me alone.

im sick of you, i hate you elliott