I've been feeling depressed and suicidal since July and everything that I usually do to help me isn't working

I just need my dad to actually do this stupid ****ing online thing so I can get my antidepressants My counselor has been setting them up for me but my dad never does it, it's either that or misses it

Brother it's literally online and free AND YOU DON'T EVEN HAVE TO DO ANYTHING, ALL THEY NEED TO DO IS ASK ME A FEW QUESTIONS AND SEE THAT UR THERE,, NOTHING ELSE please omg I just wanna get these antidepressants so I can stop thinking bout killing myself every single day

If my dad doesn't do the online thing my counselor can't make another appointment bcuz her company will think I'm lying

Urgh please dude there literally free