I need to tell you something... well we need to discuss something.

I'm worried about Sophie... she's been acting different and I feel like she's trying to make me feel bad about my choices... but when she talked to Emily or Braden a few days ago she made sure I heard her. I don't what she was trying to do but I don't think making myself hate myself more is not one of them

I feel like she has not been very active on her account lately... I may be overthinking but I been hating myself worse everyday, I know it's MY FAULT about the the way she thinks about herself. I feel to guilty like any moment just shatter and start weeping no matter where I am I've gotten close, in class, today I was... bullying myself I guess? And so I began to hate myself more and I started crying. Andrew and Nick weren't paying attention so I just cried. I just got to the point I took a pencil out of the community bin and started to scratch myself, it hurt but I've done it before It's like an addiction.

This morning at school I felt a bit of an emotion I never sensed from Sophie when she saw my shirt, it was awkward. The real reason I got the shirt was I thought Sophie would think I'm enough and that I'm worthy, but I just felt awkward. I felt like I was being judge for something I didn't know, like it was in their head but I could sense it.

I don't what to do this feeling gets worse everyday i'm scared to talk to her because I'm scared i'll do something wrong I can't handle this on my own.