Finally home
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NicolE-[OP]
12.04.2023 03:22
LinkHonestly I get you Rocko I did just take the fattest dookie because I didn’t wanna go there
NicolE-[OP]
12.04.2023 03:22
Link(Was worried I would clog it)
NicolE-[OP]
12.04.2023 03:28
LinkMy iPads abt to die one sec
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Differences in function like handwriting suddenly changing drastically
Large parts of childhood gone, I’m not talking the general loss of memory everyone feels but from what I’ve gathered from you you seem to remember the average amount
Hallucinations I haven’t heard of
Changes in behavior, sure your behavior changes but never very..how do I put it- like extreme
DID is extremely complex and the symptoms you might find could be literally like anything
It usually results from a huge traumatic experience in early early childhood, and even then it’s not likely to form
But if you really are worried I suggest finding forums and asking people who actually have it their opinions
When it comes to my adhd behaviors and stuff I tried to mask it because I was afraid I would get punished for it
As for mutism it happened a couple times when I was younger though I don’t remember distinctly
But I always had listed or wrote out the things that happened and hurt me even if I didn’t know it was abuse because it was so important to me
I’m glad you’re still here too man, I can’t even fathom what I’d do without you, I know you bring up how friendship eventually comes with accepting their death prematurely but I disagree. I don’t ever wanna lose you early or suddenly and I would probably be destroyed. Also I got some questions I quickly thought of while drinking some googoo juice (water)
How much has talking about all your trauma helped you? Do you think that bringing all this up also makes you remember these more or less? If it makes you think of them more do you believe it helps to continue talking about them? And if this ever started happening do you think you would stop or find other methods?
If these posts made somebody uncomfortable what would you do? What are some other ways you could help someone or are you content with simply explaining your own personal experiences?
These are all simply curiosity and I am in no way trying to second guess your or make you over think
1. ALOT
2. While bringing up drama I sometimes dig up more memories later on while recollecting and it helps me explain my behavior and reasoning better to myself and how it affected me
3. It brings me a sense of comfort when I talk about my experiences and knowing that it is over and that I made it out alright and I think that helps
4. If recollecting or talking about my trauma ever turns out to start making me more depressed or make me feel worse I would probably draw back from talking abt it for awhile- though the satisfaction is always there knowing again I made it
5. If any of my posts did make people uncomfortable I would probably try to either put up warnings before the post or ask them to restrict or block me
But I won’t stop making posts otherwise
6. Sometimes I won’t bring up my experiences because they won’t be relevant to the situation or would make the situation worse- in that case I try to talk to the person and ask them what’s going on and rationalize to them
Even when I don’t respond I still love reading what you have to say- so even if I don’t respond I will always like seeing what you did and what you have on your mind
It’s why I like waiting until the perfect time to open discord and see what you posted or talked abt like a little surprise
I don’t think I would tell ginger all I went through
Mostly because I don’t think she needs that on her plate rn and because a long while ago she did say something along the lines of basing what I went through to hers
And I think it would make her feel guilty knowing all I went through and remembering what she said
Maybe when we’re all in a better place you could open up to her more- I completely get that there are some things I’ve never told you before it’s mostly for your peace of mind
Like how if I only spoke about darkness and skulls people are gonna feel more inclined to be that way around me too
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