WARNING: THIS IS DEFINITELY NOT RECCOMENDED. THIS HAS SOMEWHAT WORKED FOR ME BUT I AM SURE IT SHOULDNT BE DONE. IT WILL ONLY MAKE YOU THINK YOUR BAD TIMES ARENT TRULT BAD COMPARED TO THIS. TW/ LITERALLY EVERY TW. THIS IS REALLY BAD. read about Junko Furuta. I did it and have been desensitized and stuff holy shit it's so bad guys